Happy & Sad

Hi everyone - its late for me to being blogging but here I am...lol.  My mom and I are just in from a fundraising event for my niece Nicole.  It was a great night but more about that later.  Sorry I haven't been blogging lately.  Its been a quiet few days since the last blog, albeit a stressful one trying to decide what I need to do in regards to the "should I stay or should I go" dilemma.  More about that later in the blog too...lol.  I haven't really been up to a whole lot of much this week.  On Monday we worked in the shop.  I wish I had Val as a boss all the time because she cracks me up.  She's crazy funny and I am so glad I have had this chance to get to know her better :-)   Anyway, moving on to Tuesday - my mom and I took a bus trip down to Berwick Upon Tweed (over the Scottish border into England) for an afternoon of shopping and lunch.  We had a lot of fun strolling in and out of little antique stores.  The weather was great - no rain.  We also had a good lunch at a cafe called "Thistle Do Nicely" which I thought was a great play on words.  We had Courgette & Pea soup which was quite lovely.  They were unfortunately all sold out of scones though, so we had to settle for a different dessert lol.

Berwick Upon Tweed Townhall

Yesterday I did nothing but stress out about my decision to go home early (still not sure I have made the right one).  Today more stressing, but tonight helped take my mind off of it all.  My niece Nicole is going to Tanzania in June.  She was there a couple of years ago and has been looking forward to going back.  She is going with several other kids so they had a fundraising event tonight for them.  It was held at the Radical Road Restaurant & Bar.  There was a young girl singing (who had been on the Xfactor) - she had a beautiful voice, there was food, drinks, raffles and Irish Bingo.  My mom, Val, Aunt Connie and myself drove up from Dunbar and it was so much fun.  I don't think I have laughed so much in a long time.  Our table did really well in the raffle.  I won a bottle of champagne and a bag with some "smell good" toiletries in it.  My Aunt, Val and my mom all won things too.  Overall I think they raised quite a bit of money for the trip.

I'm sad

So now to the news that I have been struggling with for the past few days.  As most of you know I had changed my ticket to return home on May 5th due to diminishing funds..lol.  It was probably a stupid decision because I probably could have figured something out.  Anyway I changed my ticket and of course British Airways charged me a fee to do it.  It was a hard decision because most of you know how much I enjoy being here.  Anyway I made the decision and was at peace with it when a couple of days ago I found out that my cousins who live in South Africa and I haven't seen for 30 years will be here in Scotland in June.  It will be my Uncle's 80th birthday and also my Aunt and Uncle's wedding anniversary (30th I think).  Anyway, the family is having a big get together and this would have been a chance of a lifetime to have us all together.  I struggled with the notion of changing my ticket back but felt guilty because I had already told my family back home in the USA that I would be home at the beginning of May.  I asked them what they thought I should do but didn't get much help in that department.  I pretty much got told  that I need to choose what I want to do.  They wont admit it but I think they are missing me lol.  Also if I change the ticket again it will be another service fee that I just cant afford to do at this point.  If I had unlimited funds I probably wouldn't have given it a second thought and changed it back.  So as it stands right now I guess my time over here comes to an end on May 5th.  I am bummed that I wont get to see my cousins and be here for my Aunt and Uncles special occasion.  I acted too abruptly in changing my ticket the first time.  I was all set to be here until Sept 1st so it was a very dumb mistake on my part.  You live and you learn I guess.  

Tomorrow is my last sewing day with the girls :-(   Going to miss that too.  Life just isn't fair.  As I told my daughter I wish there were two of me so I could be in both places at once lol.  

Well thats it for now.  I will talk with you all tomorrow.  Night night.  (Oh and Val - BAAAAAA)